Gothicsuperstar: The Orginal GrimReaper

Is there any words for this?

Today, a request from a good friend, Lena!

Operation Mindcrime - Queensryche

That's right kids, I am bringing it back...

An EXF2 tradition REBORN!!!

This week, I have really heard from a lot of Nightwish fans nostaligic for Tarja to come back with the band. That is very unlikely to happen right now, so be thankful for the memories you have with her. I have to admit, I am not all the way there with Annette yet, but she is growing on me like a fungus. So, here is a classic from the Tarja days....NEMO!

Rarely these days, I show emotion, especially my depressed side. Rarely, there is one person I ever talk about, Beth. No, I do not have pics of her on this computer, it's on an older one that I am no longer in possession of anymore. Yet, when I think of Beth, I am usually listening to Within Temptation's All I Need, a song I know she would have thought about me with.

Can you still see the heart of me?
All my agony fades away
when you hold me in your embrace

Don’t tear me down for all I need
Make my heart a better place
Give me something I can believe
Don’t tear me down
You’ve opened the door now, don’t let it close

That's us in a nutshell. Beth has passed away, going on 12 years now. She was reckless, but loving. She was wild, but always she could find a way to be sweet.

She turned me on to human, after she cut some of her own flesh. She turned me on to Satanism, and for that, I am eternally grateful for. She has left us now, after she missed the pool on a second story window. It was a traumatic experience watching her die. It's like watching someone rip your heart out and eat it right in front of you, you are so helpless to the situation.

I don't know what to say about her. She had a troubled family, and her parents were almost never happy with her, but she didn't care. She taught me that there is more to life then making others happy. I was killing myself for what? For other idiots who don't care. I was killing myself because I wanted to be loved by people. I wanted to be admired.

Who the hell was I? I was nobody, I was always trying to please others. No more. I will always break my ass for those of you who cherish our friendship. The rest of you, you're on your own. No body gets 1 anymore.

As I am sitting here, in my wonderful chair...looking out at the later afternoon sky, my mind begins to wonder. I think of many topics, for example, why are we here, or the less deep, what should I have for dinner. My mind goes where it wants. As a Satanist, you feel less guilty about free thinking because you know what your dark lord is asking you to do.

You should never stray from your heart. For that is where Satan lies within you. He helps you to help yourself. When you stumble, he is there to pick you up so that you may walk along the path again.

In a movie, The Devil's Advocate, Satan (masterfully played by Al Pachino) delvers a mind-expanding speech, about how God likes to play us as his own personal blooper reel, something that I completely agree.

As humans, we are naturally flawed, but have you ever sat down and noticed, the Seven Deadly Sins, that God told us shouldn't be done? Let's look at them one by one, shall we?

We begin with Sloth. Ahhh, good sloth. This one is my favorite sin. Sloth is just being lazy. Maybe you want to sleep in one Saturday morning, and you hit the snooze button. Well, my friend, you just committed sloth. God damns you to hell for that, you know. Yet, when you hit your snooze a couple of times, and get an extra hour of sleep, don't you feel better, don't you feel that you are in a better mood?

Which brings us to another favorite sin of mine. Yes, lechery. Lechery, or as it is call these days, lust, is distasteful behavior in a lewd manner. This includes, but is not specifically, sex (fornication), bondage, wolf whistlers. Yes, you wold whistlers are going Hell. Sex is very enjoyable, is it not? If God did not want us to have sex for any other reason than procreation, then why did he make it feel so damn good? Give in to sin! Give in to lust! Lust has spawned some of the greatest works or music, art and writings known to mankind.

Anger is next on our list. Did you stub your toe? Did you get upset about it for a second? Well, according to God, you are going to hell. Anger, one our natural responses to distress, another one of the dreaded seven deadly sins. Yes, anger is one of the worst of the seven deadlys. Granted, anger can be very self-destructive, but remember, how is someone to know that they are doing something you do not like if you do not get angry? I'm not talking about blowing up and full out killing someone, or even punching someone. Yet, you are lashing out in anger when ever you ask someone to stop annoying you.

Which is a nice segue way into pride. Yes, pride, a favorite subject of mine. Simply because why should you not take great pride in your work? Does a job well done make you feel good? Do you look at your fat bonus and smile? YOU ARE GOING TO HELL!! It's funny, isn't it, how teachers, bosses, and even our own parents make us sin every day? Think about it, what do they tell you? "Take pride in what you do." If no one had pride, then no one would want to succeed. No one would ever do a good job. I am taking full pride in writing this right now.

This could bring us one of two ways, so I am combining them, since they are almost one in the same. Avarice and Envy. Avarice is greed. Adam Smith write a book in the 1700s about the invisible hand. Great read for you econ majors. What is the "invisible hand"? Greed, pure and simple. If we did not have greed, prices on everything would be even higher. Greed and envy is what spurs competition. Competition spurs lower prices with higher quality.

Oh, we save gluttony for last. A sin that is broken EVERY SINGLE DAY. Gluttony is eating more than what is required to survive. Yes, God has weight limits. Hey, Fatty McFatfat, you are going to hell. Did you finish your plate? Then you are going to hell. Once again, we're told, taste, but don't swallow. God only wants you to have bread and water, once a day, just so you can go back to denying yourself everything else.

Yes, I hear you Christians, "but Matt, we pray to forgive." No, you pray because you are weak minded and guilt tripped into believing the things you enjoy are sinful. Food that tastes good? Oh, that's Satan's doing. Lust in your heart? Satan did it. You hate your neighbor because she slept with more people than you? Satan ruined my day. That is what I call flawed thinking. You have been brainwashed into believing that food is bad, sex is bad, greed is bad.

No it's not. It's all good, and it's what keeps the world spinning

As promised, to help out over at Legion...

Come on out this Friday, all Pagans and Satanists...and other LHP followers for our open membership drive. L4S is a great way to meet new friends, and of course a safe way to openly discuss your religion without RHP interference.

http://www.sataniclegion.snappville.com

Also, if you have any questions...head on over to L4S's Myspace page.

http://www.myspace.com/legion4satan

Ave Satanas!

Hello everyone. I know a few of you from EFX are wondering if I died, and the truth is...no I did not.

Here's what happened since my last blog posting back in February.

I converted to Theistic Satanism. Yes, for many yeas, I was a lost LaVey follower until I met a few friends who told me about Theistic Satanism, and I haven't looked back since. I joined a community called Legion for Satan. We promote religious tolerance for all those on the LHP.

Outside of that, not much has changed. I am still alive and kicking and screaming. So, enjoy.

Yes, this is a rant on words, mostly the ones I wish would just disappear from our lexicon all together.

We will start with pop culture, and see where this goes. I admit, this is just a "spaghetti post"...I'm throwing it against the wall to see if it sticks.

"Baby bump"

Definition: A impregnated woman's "stomach area" that is showing pregnancy.

Why it should be gone: I want to personally thank Angelina Jolie for this one. Seeing as the tabloid shows (which I only watch because they are the filler programs in between the 5 pm and 6 pm news) have used this word, going on 130 days in a row. It's completely overused.

Internet language as a whole

Examples: OMG! LOLZ! ZOMG!

Why it should be gone: Did you not read the report that the literacy rate in this country is dropping because of internet language? When teachers allow this drivel  on exams and  essays, we have hit the point of no return. Also, see the website LOLCATZ.com . I have nothing against the site, but people now actually talk like this. Please since when is it okay to misspell "the"? IT'S THE PEOPLE...HOW HARD IS THAT?!

The overuse of the word "like"

Example: "I was like running to the store and like they were like harassing me."

Why it should be gone: Isn't it obvious? You sound as though you are in the third grade when you say things like this.

The phrase "I need you to.." instead of "Please..."

Examples: I need you to run to the store.

Why should it be gone: Every time someone "needs" me to do something, it's either never good, or I am inconvenienced by it. You notice that it's never "I need you to help me cash this million dollar check". It's always "I need you to run to the store" or "I need you to wash the cat." I feel like replying "yessah massah." every time I hear that annoying phrase.

"Yup"

Example:  "Did you wash the car." - "Yup."

Why it should be gone: "Yup"? Are you trying to swallow or are you saying yes? What about yeah, or uh-huh. Yup sounds like you are swallowing hard. Plus, when you say it, it's never quick, you have to extend the "u", so it's more like "yuuuuuup". Not all of us are "street"

"... just got his/her street cred"

Definition: Doing something really stupid that gets you admired by the "homies". (ie: Getting arrested)

Why it should be gone: There are several reasons, but I will stick to the one where the bubble headed bleach blonde on the news should not talk like they are card carrying gang members.

I could keep going, but I think for now, I will stop right here. I'm not an English major, nor pretending to be one. I'm just someone who is irritated at how dumb people talk.